I’ve been called illogical recently on this blog. I get it though. When I tell someone that God is real, it can certainly sound illogical. Honestly, I can even admit how strange it might be for you, me telling you that a person can have a personal relationship with the God of the universe…how that would actually sound.
I mean, you can’t see Him. Like wind, you can’t touch it. And, for the most part, isn’t that what you base your logic on…what you can tangibly put your fingers on, or fix your gaze upon?
I’m not hear to defend my perspective, or even to prove it. My relationship with Jesus stands, whether church doors become irreversibly closed, religious worship becomes illegal, family members disown, business collapses, or a gun becomes shoved in my face. You can’t stop love. You wouldn’t leave a satisfying love relationship with someone else unless the other person in that relationship abandoned you. Jesus won’t do that. God doesn’t leave you. His love was self sacrificial. He gave all, so that I might live.
Next week I’ll have been married for 15 years. I know this man. I know his scent. I know how he thinks. I can almost guess correctly every quick-witted sarcastic response made in good-natured fun. I know every story being retold. I know every nuance of his tenor, because I know his voice. When he goes away for business, and I cannot see or feel him, I still know he’s real. I have his words being said to me on the other end of the phone. I believe the love saturating his texts. My love for him is a fact, because of our relationship.
My parents are another reality. When I lived a thousand miles or more away from the county I grew up in, I still could hear them speak. I still treasured their snail mail letters, and emails. Its not illogical for me to claim great love for them. That love relationship is a fact.
Well, you could argue, that was a terrible analogy. You could argue that I’ve seen my family, and I’ve given and received hugs. Even if I was blind, you could argue that I’ve touched my husband, and I’ve kissed his face. True. That’s all true. Here’s where the ‘illogical’ side of faith walks in on stage left. It’s not good faith to simply believe that I hear God’s voice, but I could tell you a couple hundred stories of God being very tangibly present, and faith became solidified. You might call faith illogical, but that’s because you haven’t had the soil for deep faith to take root yet.
Illogically sounding or not, I’m claiming an absolute real-ness of the creator God based on a similar love relationship with Him. I hear His voice. There are thousands of us that do. We read God’s word, the Bible, and hear the love that was there for His people then, and is still available to us today. When we pray, there are answers. When a problem arises, a solution becomes tangible. We have seen people physically and emotionally healed. We have been supernaturally protected by listening to His direction many times.
You might say, well how about me? I prayed to God to stop being molested, and nothing happened, I wasn’t rescued…. Or, I prayed for my child to live, and God didn’t hear me…
We cannot speak for every movement on God’s great chess board. Sometimes a pawn tips over a king. But lift up your eyes. How about those who have been touched? Is it any less real? What about the numerous many who have been protected? What about the miracles? Is God less real, or is Jesus Christ less relevant and divine because your prayer wasn’t answered? It’s like saying, if God didn’t answer my prayer, than He doesn’t answer anybody’s. Or, if God didn’t show up for me when I was 8, than He doesn’t show up for anyone at all. That’s illogical.
My brother was born with cerebral palsy. Unable to walk, he sports around a metallic black wheelchair and a handicap facilitated minivan. His love for God, and His attitude of ‘whatever-you-want-to-do-with-me God,’has led him to volunteer on his church’s prayer team. They meet certain nights of the week to pray for any who come, whether Christian or not. It’s their ministry to their community. Here he is, bending over someone in their need, either leaning close and uncomfortably in his wheelchair, or forsaking it altogether to crawl up to them on the floor. His thumb bears the calloused scar of manually turning his own wheels, and his shoes are constantly dirty and scuffed from crawling. Humbly laying his hands on dozens of people, God shows up. People are healed. Broken backs, neck injuries, depression, sight, anxiety, muscle pain, recurring nightmares, and most recently, a leg miraculously lengthened to heal a hip and alleviate a perpetual limp.
Why doesn’t God heal my brother? I don’t know.
Does that mean that God’s not nice? Because sometimes He doesn’t do what we think He should? Because here my brother is, faithfully serving, so God owes him something? The God who made heaven and earth should feel obligated to change His plans?
I trust Him still.
He has a great big purpose for my brother’s life. You see broken, but I see people changed by knowing him…helped emotionally by his positive attitude and unceasing trust. God sees with an eternal perspective. Is God less real, are the visible miracles less spectacular, just because my brother’s prayers waft unanswered year after year? He would say what I would say, “Heck no!” God is always good. It’s our perspective that’s limited. You would do something in God’s place differently? Well, it would all go wrong somewhere. You can’t see what God sees.
We are not swayed by any Godmyth.org websites, or YourGodsNotReal.com blog sites. I don’t have the time nor the heart to read every person’s dislike of Jesus Christ. I have a relationship with Him. In 15 years Ive only run across one person who disliked my husband, but when I personally witnessed her complaint, I rolled my eyes. I remember thinking, ‘she fully misunderstood him. Her loss’. The same goes for Jesus. I own His manual. He speaks through His word. He speaks through His creation. He answers my questions. He steers me in the right direction. He speaks through prophecy, and through people. Ive seen hundreds of lives completely changed! Addictions have been conquered. Marriages and family relationships have been totally restored….I don’t fully understand His thoughts, His plans, or His love for me, or for any of us, but I am a beneficiary of it. I embrace this love fully.
There are many reasons why I am not swayed by doubting Thomas’, anti-theist articles, or why I involuntarily roll my eyes at those trying to ‘help’ my intellect, no matter how well-meaning. Because you can’t have a frienship, a love relationship with the God of the universe, and not be changed. When you know how passionately loved you are, and all that Jesus gave so that you can be with Him, so that He can have a relationship with you…You would never be the same.
We all need more love. More forgiveness, more hope, faithfulness, and to give more. We all need to recognize a need and meet it. We all need to have gentleness fill our conversations, and our hands quick to give to the poor. Jesus taught me this. I guess Jesus isn’t all that illogical after all.
Praying for you,